So B&B is hanging in there. Ive thrown many curve balls at him but he just smiles, tightens up his boot strings and keeps marching. I'm starting to wonder if he is a masochist ;) I'm not sure if its the field of work Im in or just the fact that I have become jaded in my 40 years, but I honestly don't trust anyone....including myself! I am so impulsive and unpredictable and I truly don't want to hurt anyone....especially myself.
In thinking about my previous post/video clip, I wonder if I am struggling with the good vs. bad boys issue. I must say that I do have a penchant for bad boys....they are fun, but usually that wears off fast and for some reason there is a strong correlation between bad boy and dumb boy. I definitely have a wild side in me, but deep down I do want the stability and trust that has to come from the good guy right? For now, I will enjoy my time with B&B and pray he doesn't give up on me. He is so patient and kind and always laughs hard at my jokes/humor. It's also a bonus that he is divorced, as he is papered and house broken (he did the dishes in my kitchen without being asked)!!!!!
Lesson learned: As I continue "testing" him, I'm learning that I am really testing myself.
Sloppy Kisses,
Meriska
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