As much as I complain about being single, I can see commitment staring me in the face lately, and I am all but running away. Its kind of like watching a bad school play, where kids who didn't pay attention during practice suddenly find themselves in front of an audience and start acting a fool and/or just tap dance awkwardly off stage left. I know B&B is into me and I know he would love to be the one to give me what I want, what I need and what I deserve, but like the bad grade school kid, I'm not paying attention and just living in the moment and enjoying being the ass clown that I am. I worry I'll push him away but see the holidays around the corner and think that would be nice to have someone to be with at Christmas....omg that sounds awful, but its true. So here I am in the middle of my play-pen of life, wondering what toy I truly want to play with.
Sloppy kisses,
Meriska
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